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~我的地盘~我心依旧 June 26 some articles Nowadays I have no mood or passion to write anything..but searching for things amazing,with sparking ethusiasm. I am experiencing a period of lonely ,of nostalgia, of flippancy....
I like some words I've read to instead of my own thing, maybe that's so-called lazy-bones.
Here we goes April 18 ~blue&anger~ I am just wondering if I have got any trouble with him the God, otherwise, how could things be done like these! Unbelievabele disaster! Already, I have almost forgotten i am a student here who were likely with great ambition and determination. But now, it is not the same situation as it used to be, complex relation to deal with, lots of work to do... I have been here for more than half a year, no succeeds, no proud, even my dream has gone into dark and hard to pull back. Thanks my friends,thanks my parents,thanks the "sister", they standed behind me and encouraged me,even though they didn't know what has really happened to me and how I was. I want to hold on, and have to. It seems that the real life,the real sociaty have come into my life, or I have gone into it. I have to learn to face them alone,but no giving up. Yeah, perhaps God does exists, sometimes he was just teasing, you were merely to the moment unfortunate, all my wish is to get out. April 03 ～It's been busy~ Someone said my words were that kind of magic which exact means she could not understand, OK, straightforwardly , it means my words can not be understand.! Shut down, God! How depressed! I won't forgive her! "Tale as old as time, true as it can be. Barely even friends, then somebody bends, unexpectedly Just a little change, small to say the least, both a little scared, neither one prepared…" Maybe it is , maybe not, but I believe, I will be that lucky "beast" with my girl living together, happy,delight, worriless, like the fariy tale… It's been busy, our courses have been so much since this week, and there will be much less free time for me simutaneously. March 29 ～none~ Yesterday, I saw some pictures of my high school on a space of a friend. It was spring .The trees of new leaves, flowers in colours, Xi garden with the Mo pool, all of the things were about the same as the time my last time living there, just a year has passed. Things have changed, exactly I have changed. I have been far far away from my school, from my home, and from my dream. All that is still there, in those fine pictures,in those old classrooms,in those passed days…I have some spacial feelings when I saw the classroom I have been in. There were 60 dreamers who are dreaming about their destiny, and tring to change it with their endeavor. I was a member of them, but nothing can be reversed I have to admit that I missed those places so much. Seemingly, I pretended to make everthing far away of me, inside, something like nostalgia and yearm have already deeply rooted in my heart that even I myself can not see it, but feel. March 25 ~trust myself~ This afternoon, we our class football team have gained a wonderful score on the match against the 101 football team . That is 7: 0! Yes~ it is ,seven goals, two of which are mine. Our team's attack has completely destoryed their usual strategy. Things above are all the excitings, all! These days I've always been very depression, there were so many reasons for me to have such feelings, I do not want to list them here one by one, more, i do not know how to say. 不解释了 感觉像逃荒 可是是为什么呢? 那个谁说的:只要看准了 就别让他跑了~! come on! March 22 ~o! i am ill~ It is a bad day! Nothing goes through my expectation. My phone has got out of serve and the Maths' teacher has totally destoryed his figure in my mind, worst, i am ill! i had a fever… exactly i had got a bad cold. Indeed,it is a so windy weather that this city in. i ,until now, hardly get used to it… fortunatelly,illness is not a kind of nothing of use. First,with no hesitation,i give myself a wonderful pay — a nice super,for i have not had such cate for a long time may be just since i got here. Second, i finally get a proper excuse to excape the English class that i have dreams for for a long time , and thanks for my illness, I got a two-day time to relax and play…！ March 19 ～it's my fault~ I looked up the dictionary for a word that could exactly express my present feeling——disappoint,gloomy,depressed… they may be a part of what i want to say,but not the whole. I found another word i have not known before:morose.It says:unhappy,bad-tempered and not talking very much.Yes,just unhappy!a very simple word.I got much better just when I have saw the word.It is a kind of relax or relieved. I have saw some words somewhere before long.I can not remember each word,but there is a trope of mood. "Sometimes u may feel terrible,then u regard everthing as the worst.U teen,u feel lost,u can not gather yourself together…all of these just come from a broken ballpen fallen of the desk. After a moment of complain and holler,u get right." Things always go with the easiest way,all the bumpiness are in you heart,it is you~that make the world. |
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